So no go . . still . . havent heard a peep . .

Not sure how I feel . . my child is entering the world in the next few weeks . . . what I do know is that this will seal the deal . . .

We can go easy . . or we can go hard . . .

If we go hard . . its on.

Lord . . please make this easy . . . I dont wanna be hard . . it hurts too much.

Getting this party started right . . .

I am back . . after a long time away . . this is the place to express and do ME . . without the fateful eyes watching . .

without self blame or self contempt

without fear .. .

and definitely without judgment.

There are two of me now . . the one who mothers and the mother who is one.

This is the place where the mother who is one and HAS won resides . . .

Keepin it 1000 . . . .