Merrily, Merrily, Merrily . . life is but a game . . .

NOTE: This blog is for me . . read it if you like . . but it gets the shit out of my head . . .

For the last few days, I have been out of control . . in fact . . I feel like this lack of control has been hovering on the horizon . . waiting for an opportunity to break in and rear its ugly head . . . for a long time coming. I have been holding onto everything so tightly - my life, my friends, my lovers, anything that I could control . . the great thing is that what I could control, I did . . and well . ..

That which I didn't, I relinquished . . .. under the guise of I don't give a sh&%, it didn't matter, it was some BS anyway - all the while - knowing full well that it was, simply, a reaction to the game (Wow - that is a trip to recognize about yourself . . .)

What I have found and am continuing to find is that when you are out here making it on your own is . . . pay attention . . . is that you can make the game whatever you want it to be without fear of repercussion because after all . .your life is the game that YOU make it . . . how YOU define it . . . the rules, the equipment, the location and most importantly . . the players . . .

Ha!!!

The players are probably THE most important part of the game . . . they set the tone . . they SHAPE the rules . . one shot can deliver the winning score, leading to a Gatorade soak OR they can CHEAT and throw the whole thing into OVERTIME . . messing it up for everybody and keeping everyone on the edge of their seats.

Lately, my games have hit double and triple OT and it really calls for a certain level of patience that is unrivaled in my life . . .

The concept of Patience and Waiting will have to wait for another time . . but this is where I am today . . .

Today's game is running smoothly but who knows the 4th quarter hasn't hit yet . . .