Writing Wrongs . . .

So how does one correct one's steps . . . There are often times when we make decisions or do things that we instantly regret.

I had one of those moments this week . . . my emotions were high . . my feelings were raw . . . and like an inexperienced young lady . . I gave up control to hot headed feelings that should have been controlled.  It came from a place of hurt . . of longing for what I can't have . . and won't or can't be given to me . .  Damn, this is so complicated . . . I wish everything could be on the table and a definitive answer given, decided upon and moved on.  I am soo much more better in that environment . .but . .  just can't see it . . .

Whatever . .

The effect of that on the other person was something I did not consider . .  the aftershocks of my behaviour was not anywhere in sight . .  even though both of our actions got us here . . . but i can't worry about them . . i can acknowledge my own wrong . . .

I dont know if its fixable .. .the worst part of it was  ..  it was on the heels of a wonderful life changing experience - the birth of my son.  The support, the love, it was above and beyond any thing that I could have ever imagined . .

What do you say . . . I'm sorry . . or better yet, what do you say when you ALREADY know . . I'm sorry won't cut it for the person the action was exacted upon?

I am more confused today than ever before . . but it is necessary to shift focus . . so I shall . .

GCL.  .. GCL . .. GCL.  ..

done.